Psalm from the Heart

How long O Lord?
How long will my heart be searching?
How much longer before I can share this deep love that You've placed within my soul?
How long before I see my heart for family realized?
How long before I will continually share the depths of who I am with a man?
How long before this man shares the depths of who he is with me?
How long before we enter into covenant?
How long before two become one?
How long before the emptiness of my hand and my heart become full?

But, Papa, I know that my hand is not truly empty- for you have always been holding mine in yours.
You have never left me in wanting for something you cannot satisfy.
Thank you- Your timing is perfect.
Thank you- Your way is right.
Thank you- Than You are shaping me into more of what you've intended for me to be.
I know that you will bring forth---and I thank you for--- the man of great strength and mind and heart that you have for me.
A man whose heart is Yours
A man who bears Your image
And sees your image in mine.
That together, we will greater reveal your heart for this perfect time- for the places and nations you will set before us

We place our trust and hope in you, O Lord.
For we know your way is best
You are faithful
You are good
You are true

You never leave or forsake us
You haven't placed within me deep longing for things without hope
I trust you, Papa,
I do.

I wrote this in October of 2015, but thought to share it just now as I have been SO encouraged in this journey. I will meet new people in the passing- on a bus, on a plane. And regardless of the fact that my fingers are presently ringless, I am always asked if I am married. People seem disappointed when I'm not. Not necessarily because it is a social norm (but maybe so). But they all seem to see and to voice the quality person that I am- the can see the value that I hold, and desire for someone to value me deeply in this way. I get it. I do too. It never fails to inspire hope to my heart. I've had many a blessings, prayers, and well wishes from perfect strangers along this journey. Helpers within my story. The story is of course still in process, as it will forever be. But I am grateful to all you who have spoken life into my future, and peace into my present. Thank you

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I hope that for you who are determined not to settle find encouragement in this <3

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September 1st 2017:

Little did I know that just months later I'd meet the man with whom that I'd spend the rest of my life.
Little did I know that you were guiding my every stride.
Little did I know that one cup of tea would change my whole world.
Little did I know the amount of safety, security, and comfort that I'd find within his arms.
Little did I know that my favorite place to rest my head would be upon his chest.
Little did I know that you were saving the best of the best.