Sorry for not updating about the rest of outreach, stories to be released soon!
For the past couple of weeks I was asking God why it is that I am still in Africa, - what is His purpose in this, as I felt like I wasn't doing too much. He started to minister to me about just being, just being, living loving and delighting in Him is where He wants me.
I felt like I needed to do in order to earn His approval, earn His love. But its becoming more and more a reality that I can just rest in that love and His perfect love casts out all fear. In Him there is not fear... "Fear not, for I have loved you, I have called you by name, you are mine" This has been a constant struggle to really truly live out, but I see it become more and more real every day, and a true and pure worship springing from this coming forth.
It is in stepping out in faith beyond the fears trusting in His goodness that I can see ahead.
TODAY I STEPPED OUT. I went to hang out with a bunch of boys from a pretty rough township, that this amazing group of people have just lavished the Father's love to, and have made such a difference in their lives. I can see the transforming power of Christ in these boys lives, that I have only just met, and it is INCREDIBLE I was able to ENTER into that, maybe not to the extent that I desired to, but it was a step.
And by just being available, God ministered so much to me through these boys. AND I was presented with the opportunity to be a part of a team that is going to be doing "the divine plumbline" inner healing in the community here in Worcester.
A new friend that I met just recently asked me what I was doing this upcoming week, and since I am totally available, she told me about this and invited me to be a part of the team and as she spoke I felt this Holy Spirit sensation, and God spoke "this is why you are still here" So when she told me to pray about it, I just agreed to do so because I knew.
My hesitation being that I didn't go through the training that they did during the last week, but as Ithought that, God spoke that if I had gone to the training I would be relying on my own knowledge and understanding and not trusting Him and the gifts and equipting He has already placed in me.
So its a week long thing, and then I have the weekend back here before leaving for home on tuesday!
Iam so excited for this week as I believe that I will see feel and be a part of seeing the light of Christ bind up the broken hearted and set the captives free. I'm jumping up an down inside - saying God Here I am Send me =D
Isaiah 61
The Year of the LORD's Favor
1 The Spirit of the Sovereign LORD is on me,
because the LORD has anointed me
to preach good news to the poor.
He has sent me to bind up the brokenhearted,
to proclaim freedom for the captives
and release from darkness for the prisoners, [a]
2 to proclaim the year of the LORD's favor
and the day of vengeance of our God,
to comfort all who mourn,
3 and provide for those who grieve in Zion—
to bestow on them a crown of beauty
instead of ashes,
the oil of gladness
instead of mourning,
and a garment of praise
instead of a spirit of despair.
They will be called oaks of righteousness,
a planting of the LORD
for the display of his splendor.
4 They will rebuild the ancient ruins
and restore the places long devastated;
they will renew the ruined cities
that have been devastated for generations.
