Showing posts with label encouragement. Show all posts
Showing posts with label encouragement. Show all posts

Thursday, March 3, 2016

Psalm from the Heart

How long O Lord?
How long will my heart be searching?
How much longer before I can share this deep love that You've placed within my soul?
How long before I see my heart for family realized?
How long before I will continually share the depths of who I am with a man?
How long before this man shares the depths of who he is with me?
How long before we enter into covenant?
How long before two become one?
How long before the emptiness of my hand and my heart become full?

But, Papa, I know that my hand is not truly empty- for you have always been holding mine in yours.
You have never left me in wanting for something you cannot satisfy.
Thank you- Your timing is perfect.
Thank you- Your way is right.
Thank you- Than You are shaping me into more of what you've intended for me to be.
I know that you will bring forth---and I thank you for--- the man of great strength and mind and heart that you have for me.
A man whose heart is Yours
A man who bears Your image
And sees your image in mine.
That together, we will greater reveal your heart for this perfect time- for the places and nations you will set before us

We place our trust and hope in you, O Lord.
For we know your way is best
You are faithful
You are good
You are true

You never leave or forsake us
You haven't placed within me deep longing for things without hope
I trust you, Papa,
I do.



I wrote this in October of 2015, but thought to share it just now as I have been SO encouraged in this journey. I will meet new people in the passing- on a bus, on a plane. And regardless of the fact that my fingers are presently ringless, I am always asked if I am married. People seem disappointed when I'm not. Not necessarily because it is a social norm (but maybe so). But they all seem to see and to voice the quality person that I am- the can see the value that I hold, and desire for someone to value me deeply in this way. I get it. I do too. It never fails to inspire hope to my heart. I've had many a blessings, prayers, and well wishes from perfect strangers along this journey. Helpers within my story. The story is of course still in process, as it will forever be. But I am grateful to all you who have spoken life into my future, and peace into my present. Thank you

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I hope that for you who are determined not to settle find encouragement in this <3

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September 1st 2017:

Little did I know that just months later I'd meet the man with whom that I'd spend the rest of my life.
Little did I know that you were guiding my every stride.
Little did I know that one cup of tea would change my whole world.
Little did I know the amount of safety, security, and comfort that I'd find within his arms.
Little did I know that my favorite place to rest my head would be upon his chest.
Little did I know that you were saving the best of the best.



Saturday, December 6, 2014

I am who I am because of who my Grandma is.

I am who I am because of who my grandma is.

I say “is” because she lived her life in such a way that she is still alive today. Not only in memories and attributes she deposited in each of us, but also before the throne of her father. Now fully alive, even more alive than she ever was here.


If there is anything that anyone could ever express about Grandma Pat, it’s of her love. The love that she tangibly expresses daily is one that reflects the heart of God. She was at EVERY major event in my life. Selflessly, in every way imaginable it flows from her.  Her joy-filled smile to express her excitement to see you, sharing who she is with anyone and everyone she meets. She doesn’t just hold love in her heart, but expresses it to make a lasting impact on the world.
My Grandma is a LOVER.

One thing that blesses my heart is that she is always giving.  She would save up her change and give me a bag full to give to missionaries in Africa. It would only be a few dollars worth, but she gives what she has. She made up a shoebox each year to send Christmas gifts to those who have so little. Whenever I traveled out of the country for missions she gave $5 each month to support what Jesus and I were up to. She is always quick to pull out orange Tic Tacs or some goody to fill your sweet tooth. 
My Grandma is a GIVER.

            A good word is never to far from my grandma’s lips. She is quick to point out a job well done. A card sent out for every occasion signed with Love ‘N Prayers from Grandma Pat.
My Grandma is an ENCOURAGER.

            Once we pulled out every stuffed animal in the yard, made snacks, crowns out of little white flowers to celebrate the marriage of our Teddy bears and threw them a huge wedding party.
            With every game a life lesson learned: lessons about how to enter in, of how to be prepared for any given situation. She knows how to value a child and validate them recognizing where they are at and investing and encouraging their play.
My Grandma is an ENGAGER and a TEACHER, PRESENT to every opportunity.

            When she’d stay with us, night after night would be filled with stories of the “Good Old Days” as I would call it. Sharing the details of life’s ups and downs many of her kids and their lives and maybe a handful of others here. At bed time, Gabby and I would beg for one more Good Old Day Story.
My Grandma is a STORYTELLER.

            My grandma is not afraid to take risks, break through social norms to love, protect, care for and be with kids or grandkids. Her travels are many from the picnics in the park, to venturing around the country, and even to Costa Rica. Nothing can hold her back with boldness and extreme vigor she goes forward.
My grandma is an ADVENTUROUS PIONEER

            She would punch holes in construction paper and have us weave yarn through the holes with a needle made of cardboard. She made every Halloween costume, p.j.s, shirts, pillos, scrunchies for birthdays and Christmas. She decorated her apartment with each season. We made SO many crafts: pencil holders, play dough, collages- I can’t even count the number of crafts we completed.
My Grandma is CREATIVE and CRAFTY.

            These are just a few of the many attributes my grandma shares and holds. Many, I’m sure, gained along the way. Swimming through many of life’s waters, both rough and smooth. No matter how turbulent the waters she swims through with such poise and grace. And even know, I can’t help but think she is swimming .


I want to invite you into something…
I’ve been thinking about heaven a lot in the last couple of weeks. So imagine with me a moment.

After this I looked, and behold, a door standing open in heaven! And the first voice which I had heard addressing me like [the calling of] a [a]war trumpet said, Come up here, and I will show you what must take place in the future.
At once I came under the [Holy] Spirit’s power, and behold, a throne stood in heaven, with One seated on the throne!
And He Who sat there appeared like [the crystalline brightness of] jasper and [the fiery] sardius, and encircling the throne there was a halo that looked like [a rainbow of] emerald.
Twenty-four other thrones surrounded the throne, and seated on these thrones were twenty-four elders ([b]the members of the heavenly Sanhedrin), arrayed in white clothing, with crowns of gold upon their heads.
Out from the throne came flashes of lightning and rumblings and peals of thunder, and in front of the throne seven blazing torches burned, which are the seven Spirits of God [[c]the sevenfold Holy Spirit];
And in front of the throne there was also what looked like a transparent glassy sea, as if of crystal. And around the throne, in the center at each side of the throne, were four living creatures (beings) who were full of eyes in front and behind [with intelligence as to what is before and at the rear of them].
The first living creature (being) was like a lion, the second living creature like an ox, the third living creature had the face of a man, and the fourth living creature [was] like a flying eagle.
And the four living creatures, individually having six wings, were full of eyes all over and within [underneath their wings]; and day and night they never stop saying, Holy, holy, holy is the Lord God Almighty (Omnipotent), Who was and Who is and Who is to come.
And whenever the living creatures offer glory and honor and thanksgiving to Him Who sits on the throne, Who lives forever and ever (through the eternities of the eternities),
10 The twenty-four elders ([d]the members of the heavenly Sanhedrin) fall prostrate before Him Who is sitting on the throne, and they worship Him Who lives forever and ever; and they throw down their crowns before the throne, crying out,
11 Worthy are You, our Lord and God, to receive the glory and the honor and dominion, for You created all things; by Your will they were [brought into being] and were created.
            -Revelation 4:1-10 Amplified Version


Because of who Grandma Pat is, what draws me particularly lately is the sea of glass. Liquid like sea? Solid like glass? Is it both? Regardless I can totally picture grandma swimming around the throne praising the Lord with an aquatic dance.


            She lived her life responding to the invitation of her Father. She started that dance, that life here and paved the way for me, and many here to enter in and truly live life.

Friday, February 14, 2014

Encouragement and an Exuberant Embracement of the Single Status

A little bit of a rewrite from my Sleepless in Seattle Blog (circa 2009), but a story worth revisiting, especially on a day like today :)

There was so much beauty to drink in when canoeing down this river. It simply took my breath away. On this particular day, in addition to the raw natural beauty we passed, the man-made structures that were built along the riverbed caught my eye. I was mesmerized by all of the interesting houses with their differing shapes. Features I'd never before seen. My mind drifted to thoughts of the possibility of one day building a house, embracing some of the architecture from this trip sketching in my mind plans for a future. Mind continued to wander. Maybe my (future) husband and I would build one together. Or maybe even before then. I had been thinking of marriage a lot during this time period. I ended up telling God that I wanted someone to romance me. "I want to be romanced... Swept off my feet" Just one of those little passing thought prayers that you don't spend to much time thinking about.

Quite some time later on this same canoeing expedition, I see this little red object bobbing up and down with the flow of the river. As we continued forward, I tried to take a better look to identify what this intriguing bright red THING could be. Before I knew it my hand was in the water fishing it out so that I could get a better look. When I realized what it was, I couldn't help but smile.

A rose.
A single
fresh cut
red rose.
BEAUTIFUL.

God had not only heard my prayer, but HE romanced me.
It was beautiful.
And I love Him.
He's quite a romantic one...

<3

Another good post that I came across for today from October of 2010

I praise God for my singleness!

He has given me time
to spend in the secret place
He and I.
My beloved.
The place where I get to know His heart and
He gets to explore mine
Mine.
As in:
JUST ME.

I can catch a plane at a moments notice
without a care in the world
I have wings to soar with
Not that I won't soar when I'm married-
I'm just learning to fly high now
Yes, someday it will be alongside someone-
and maybe we'll fly to even greater heights
BUT- I won't be a rookie to the air :)

God has given ME this time to explore
and discover
I've thought for so long
this state of singleness was a holding pattern
For when both I and my future husband are ready for each other
BUT
It's not
This is a gift
That will be a gift too
This is my gift now.

I've started a list of what I want to do while I am still single
What things do you want to do to embrace the season you are in?

(for those of you who presently know me, this is two years and two months prior to me being involved in the airline industry. It "just so happened" that I related the depth of my relationship with God to the heights reached in flying :)

<3

Being in a relationship is a beautiful thing. But being single is a beautiful thing too! Take time to discover, embrace, and challenge yourself. Take risks- apply for that job, create that work of art, walk across the pacific ocean, or fly to Mars. It's not too far-fetched. Embrace the dreams your heart hold. Embrace the people you encounter at school, at work, in the passing on the street. Embrace open armedly the fullness of what you have to offer this life and what Life has to offer you.

And know: you're not alone <3





Tuesday, August 11, 2009

A True God Sent

I just met the most amazing woman that I have ever met in my life. One day she realized that she could do more than just be a house wife, and she prayed to God that he would show her how to use her to the best of her abilities. The next day a woman stopped by early in the morning asking her if she could take care of her three kids. More and more children kept arriving, and pretty soon she had to ask her mother in law for space to watch kids, but even that wasn’t enough. Within time she had some government support and was able to have a place for the kids to come daily. Her doors open before 6 and she has kids until after 10 at night.


She receives a little bit of government support for 80 some of the children. She receives well over that number, many of the children’s parents undocumented and unable to pay. She’s all go go go – as she runs the whole show with the help of 3 other women.


The most impacting thing is the LOVE that she pours out for these children. She shared with me that with every diaper she changes she is giving everything she has. She won’t make disgusting faces, but willingly cleans each one of them – just one of the many ways that she expresses her love to the children. She also shared about she disciplines them and uses tough love so that they learn, and won’t let them get by with all that they try to do. She boasts that not one swear word is spoken within her gates.


What broke my heart was hearing the story of a little boy and his little sister. Their mother is a prostitute and drug addict, both born of different fathers. They are some of the kids that are there until ten at night. One day the mom dropped of her son, and not her daughter. She didn’t come back to pick him up until four days later. This same little boy has been abused by his stepfather- his little sister’s father. The woman explains that those are the reasons why she works as much as she does.


She provides a safe place for these children to be. Free from drugs, free from violence, and abuse. If they weren’t with her they would be in their houses, neighbor’s houses or on the streets, suffering through all sorts of evils. She knows all about the street life, having grown up there herself, and she wants something better for these kids. She wants to have a place where they are safe, they are loved, and they are encouraged to move forward in their studies and live a different lifestyle from that of their parents.

Monday, August 10, 2009

His Presence and Ministry with Ohio team

From day 1 of being with them INCREDIBLE things have taken place. They are very open to the workings and the movement of the Holy Spirit. We had an AMAZING time in worship together where the presence of God was so tangible so real, I saw our hearts joining as one to worship the God that we all know and love. Our team ministered to theirs, and then theirs to ours and we ended up interceding for Heredia, Costa Rica, and the churches of Costa Rica. It was such a sweet time in the presence of God.


I translated for Church, and there were several times I had to hold my self back from shouting out when the Holy Spirit came upon me. I felt the pastors mantle resting upon me as I shared. The Holy Spirit to many of the youth and women of the church. My eyes were set on one woman but since I was translating it took me a while to get to her. The moment I set my hand on her, I began to pray as the Holy Spirit led, and She immediately started crying- entering into areas of her life that she hadn’t in the past, allowing Jesus to enter into her hurt, and being able to forgive those who had hurt her. It was SO powerful. God is setting the captives free!


We went to a park to share about Jesus and all that Jazz and we approached two guys, talked forever about everything under the sun, and then in the end asked if we could pray for them. They said yes and the first guy said for his school. The second guy said the same, but I could tell that he had something more, so I asked him and he OPENED up and shared about all of his pains with his father's alcoholism, how it tore apart his family and the lonliness he felt. This was HUGE for him to be sharing. His friend was hearing it all for the first time- and something in their friendship deepened. They are going to be able to hold each other up in times of difficulty, and for that I am so grateful.